I'm feeling a certain kind of way and I don't like to feel this way. Ever. The sweaty palms, the quickened heartbeat, the butterflies/bubbles in the stomach. Sigh. And they only seem to happen when I think of a certain someone.
I guess you could say I have a crush. He is someone who has become a friend, which makes the whole situation even better, or worse, depending on how you look at it.
See, I'm not used to this friend before dating thing. I'm used to "yo baby, can i get your number?", "yo baby, can i hit it?", "yo baby, goodbye." Obviously, I could use a change. My conversations with Crush are usually via modern technology, i.e. texting, i.m., emails. Afterward, I spend way too much time analyzing what was written to see if I missed some kinda clue that he was flirting with me. All I know is he's single and looking, I'm single and half-assly (is that a word?) looking and we hang out. I enjoy is company, but I've been trying not to get my hopes up too high and I've been scaling down my inner Joan Clayton.
We're going on a Not-Date this week. What is a Not-Date, you may ask? Well, it's not a date, that's for sure. It's just that we've discovered that we'll be attending the same party alone and we've made plans to go together. And this has actually caused major anticipation on my part, from trying to figure out what to wear in advance, to praying nonstop that it won't rain and cause me to Plan B the outfit.
Anyway, I'm happy to be doing the friend thing and taking things s l o w for a change. I'll tell him sometime in the future how I feel, if things work out. For now, I'm just going to enjoy the moment and pine from afar. Hopefully, he won't figure out that my new myspace song (Fantasia's "When I See U) is about him.
We're going on a Not-Date this week. What is a Not-Date, you may ask? Well, it's not a date, that's for sure. It's just that we've discovered that we'll be attending the same party alone and we've made plans to go together. And this has actually caused major anticipation on my part, from trying to figure out what to wear in advance, to praying nonstop that it won't rain and cause me to Plan B the outfit.
Anyway, I'm happy to be doing the friend thing and taking things s l o w for a change. I'll tell him sometime in the future how I feel, if things work out. For now, I'm just going to enjoy the moment and pine from afar. Hopefully, he won't figure out that my new myspace song (Fantasia's "When I See U) is about him.
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11 comments:
awwww! isn't the whole crush thing fun? you've got the butterflies and anxiousness and you make sure you look extra flyy anytime you even think you're going to see them.
i miss that...it's nice.
great post! i hope it works out.
and yes, half-assedly is a word. lol. at least to me it is. ha.
Thanks; I'm hoping for the best!
And if half-assedly isn't a word, it sure as shootin' should be!
awwwwww! I remember that new crush feeling....vaguely. I also remember having "not dates" with LOML so you know what I have to say about that.
Anyways, I like him and you two seem like a good match to me so I hope it happens! (especially since when he's around, you're too busy fawning over him to pick on me! It's great!) ;o)
'"yo baby, can i get your number?", "yo baby, can i hit it?", "yo baby, goodbye." Obviously, I could use a change.'
love it
It's so much better to have a friend that you fall in love with, than to fall in love and THEN try to become friends. We all know that shit don't work! You've got the right idea sis...
Fawn?? Did I fawn, Juicy?? Dios mio ... no recuerdo!
Thanks for the comment. I'm glad you surfaced. I miss ya on the blogosphere.
who is this person?? you need to send me a picture. i posted by the way! xxoo, margie
Wise words once again from Tha L. Thanks!
And mum's the word, Motown. I've already said too much. You'll just have to leave it to your imagination. I'll check out your latest post soon.
btw, i tell you everything, strength. just trying to use guilt on you.
Oh Motown -- you've guilted it out of me. I hope the emails I've sent you have been enough!
Umm....can a sista get an update? Sheesh! Not tryin' to get ALL THE WAY up in yo biznezz, but how did the "not date" go? Peace, s/c/w, hope ur smiling!
Alright, alright!! I've got something coming just for you, L-Boogie! Be patient ...
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