Saturday, September 27, 2008

What's Going On Pt II

· So, I think I have The Blues · Not the kind where everyone is like, ‘what’s wrong with you, what’s wrong with you?’ · No, more like the kind where everyone is like, ‘boy, you’ve been in such a good mood lately’ ‘you seem so upbeat’ · Well, folks, it’s all an act · I call this faking my way to a good day · If anyone could look inside my head, best believe they wouldn’t see the sunshine & cotton candy that they expect to find · No sir, they’ll find big, dark cumulus clouds, thunder, lightning and the bad witch from the Wizard of Oz · Ok, that’s quite an exaggeration, but I’m for real when I say I have The Blues ·

Clearly, the obvious question is, ‘why do you have The Blues, Strength?’ · Without putting all my business out there, I’ll just say that sometimes the obvious decisions are often the most difficult to make · I mean, I always knew 2 + 2 = 4 · But sometimes, I get it in my head that it could easily equal 5 or 6, or maybe even 11 · You’ll have to forgive me if this makes no sense · After all, I did tell you I have The Blues · I’m getting good at this swimming thing, btw · The class is mainly adults, with the exception of about three kids · One of the kids includes a mentally challenged boy who has been running around and wreaking havoc, but that’s another story · My swim teacher – ‘Charles’ -- has one leg, not that that has anything to do with anything · The fact that Charles is missing a limb doesn’t bother me in the slightest, but it’s all I can think about · Whenever people ask me how my lessons are going, I’ll say the same thing · ‘My teacher has one leg’ · Does that make me prejudiced? · Scratches head ·


I have this raging desire to do a bunch of art projects as an outlet for The Blues · Lately, collages have been my vice · Yet suddenly, I have a deep, intense, HUNGER to do some fingerpainting · I want to dip my hands deep into some paint, then flail them wildly across a white wall until I’m out of breath · Does that make me strange? · I must be sure to call my mother more often · Whenever I do call, she’s like ‘what’s wrong? what happened?’ · Apparently, I don’t call ‘just to say hi’ often enough · I’m obsessed with TLC, particularly What Not To Wear · For years, I’ve been fighting the fact that a friend needs a What Not To Wear intervention · Obviously, I wouldn’t embarrass her on TV in front of millions · But I’m not above holding her down while my hairstylist does her hair · Or shredding some of her clothes · Or applying some lipstick · Or oiling up the ashy spots · Sigh · I can be quite cruel when I want to be ·


I want to see Maxwell in the WORSE way · Tickets are sold out here, but I’m considering traveling to Idaho to see him perform · Seven has become my favorite number lately · What I mean, is that lately I’ve been grooving off of the seventh songs from my favorite CDs for The Blues · Mary J. Blige’s Real Love got me this · Heather Headley’s first CD gave me this · And the Waiting to Exhale soundtrack gave me this · Hey, I didn’t say they were happy songs · Each gave me what I wanted/needed at a given time ·


What I need right now is to stop reconsidering my decisions · Stand firm, woman · If That Man is elected, I’m moving to Canada · I’m rambling like an idiot · But I think that was the point of this post · I’ve become obsessed with Twitter · Which is yet another way of Big Brother to monitor us · Yet I can’t stop · Ok, signing off now · The Blues will be cured in no time · Out ·

9 comments:

Nicole said...

I think I understand what you mean about thinking that 2+2 could equal something other than 4. Been there many times.

I have a thing for WN2W, too. If there's a marathon on, I'm glued to my sofa - as if I haven't seen every episode twice.

I'm with you on THAT MAN winning the election...but I may head to Ireland instead of Canada. Cooler accents. I was on a flight to Orlando with an entire Irish clan and couldn't understand a word they said...it was brilliant!

Nicole said...

I think I understand what you mean about thinking that 2+2 could equal something other than 4. Been there many times.

I have a thing for WN2W, too. If there's a marathon on, I'm glued to my sofa - as if I haven't seen every episode twice.

I'm with you on THAT MAN winning the election...but I may head to Ireland instead of Canada. Cooler accents. I was on a flight to Orlando with an entire Irish clan and couldn't understand a word they said...it was brilliant!

Juicy77 said...

I'm sorry you've been feeling down, friend. You know you can vent to me whenever.:o(

And you can trust and believe, I will be heading to Canada with you if the unthinkable happens. Saving up for warmer coats now just in case because the fools may not have learned.

Strength/Courage/Wisdom said...

thanks, i appreciate it!

A said...

Ahhh... I see the source of your Blues. I think.

I've been obsessed with www.huffingtonpost.com. and cnn.com/politics. I check a million times a day to see if anything's changed. I went canvassing in PA on Sunday. We went to NW Philly and our field organizer said that they have 700,000 Dems registered & that they need 500,000 of those to vote on election day. They believe that if they get that amount, they'll win the state.

500,000 out of 700,000. Add that to your mental equation gymnastics.

I can't use the Canada excuse. I said it the last time and I didn't budge. But I may move to France.

Cami said...

1. hope you feel better, lady. everybody is in a funk, it seems. 2. i said the exact thing about That Man the other day. A friend and I are plotting a move to Toronto if it doesn't go as planned on 11/4 and 3. i love me some What Not to Wear, too!

Reese said...

Battlestar Galactica...

1/16/09.

Season Finale (3 hours!!)...

3/20/09.

And now your life is complete. So say we all! ;)

Strength/Courage/Wisdom said...

Reese, you have cured The Blues. Thank you so much!!! The March 20th finale will be an early birthday present for me. I think Gaeta is the final Cylon. So say we all.

Reese said...

Don't you know that BSG cures all and is the very answer to all questionable things in life?

Anyways, you're welcome. :)